asking the right things
So it's kind of encouraging. I am aware that who I am and how I live my life does stick out sometimes. People wonder where I go on Sundays. People want to know why I have a bible by my bed. People wonder why I'd refuse to share a bed with my boyfriend. These things are not necessarily the most important things about me, but they are some of the most visible things about a different identity that I have.
So these are the things that are often the first things that are noticed and then commented on/questioned. Sometimes these questions lead to a dead end, sometimes the answers offend people ( I can remember Sunita just walking out of the room in disgust when Emma once asked me about church in Bath). Sometimes people are just curious.
I have a new friend called Sam. Apart from being a great guy, he really does seem interested in the whole chrisitan thing. He's making all the right noises, anyway. It's not at any tangible point, but I'm pretty sure he's asking himself questions about who I am. I'm just so scared that I'm going to fluff up really badly in front of him and then he'll dismiss it all.... Ok, that sounds really pretensious. I don't mean it like that. I just think that right now, he's more interested in me than the whole thing behind me, and until he sees the bigger picture, I don't want to screw up badly in front of him so that he misses everything else. Does that make sense?
So these are the things that are often the first things that are noticed and then commented on/questioned. Sometimes these questions lead to a dead end, sometimes the answers offend people ( I can remember Sunita just walking out of the room in disgust when Emma once asked me about church in Bath). Sometimes people are just curious.
I have a new friend called Sam. Apart from being a great guy, he really does seem interested in the whole chrisitan thing. He's making all the right noises, anyway. It's not at any tangible point, but I'm pretty sure he's asking himself questions about who I am. I'm just so scared that I'm going to fluff up really badly in front of him and then he'll dismiss it all.... Ok, that sounds really pretensious. I don't mean it like that. I just think that right now, he's more interested in me than the whole thing behind me, and until he sees the bigger picture, I don't want to screw up badly in front of him so that he misses everything else. Does that make sense?
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