falling to pieces

Everything around me just seems to be falling to pieces before my very eyes right now. Everything I thought I could grip on to is sliding away. I thought I had a sort of working knowledge of the world and the way it and people worked but it's become so obvious that I don't. I can't see how I can re-map all of these things that I have learnt since I was a very little girl. I don't know how I can survive without the boy. I just don't know how to keep going.

I just don't know.